As I embarked on my journey inward, exploring yoga with my guru, Sonu began to notice the distance between him and I. This brought about spells of temper tantrums, an uncomfortable needy vibe flying in my general direction, and a serious rift between us. This all made me pull farther away from him. I just wanted to forget that we ever kissed and go back to being soul friends! We were so great together until that moment and then it just got wierd, and continued to get more wierd.
How can a person deal with this type of situation. I kept asking myself. I wanted to talk about things, to make it right, to smoothe it over. But our cultural differences were getting in the way. Our language barriers were also, for the first time really getting in the way.
It got really bad the night we took Cecile to the train station. Sonu was in an excessively depressed mood, and was driving like a maniac! We were so late and the drive was so crazy that Cecile missed her train. The energy was crazy and bad. As Cecile and Sonu went to go talk to the train station attendents, Sarah and I peed on the ground right behind the car. I had this thought in my head that in America we would never have done that unless we were really drunk, and I haven't been that drunk in years. Yet, in India peeing behind the vehicle was common, and sometimes a better option than trying to muster up the courage to go into the bathroom with a hole in the ground. The train station parking lot was dark and creepy, and Sonu's vibe had us wierded out, we talked about how dirty we felt at that moment!
We ended up going on a wild goose chase to find Cecile a way out of town that night. It was some what necessary seeing as how she was to leave for France the next evening and had to descend out of the himalayas back down to Delhi. We had seen a sign for a night bus on our way into town so we went in search of that with hope. We found it not far up the road and Cecile went and got her ticket for the last bus out that night and came back. At that point Sonu got out and went to talk with the attendents. He left us in the car in a hurry with aggravated energy swirling in his path. He then proceeded to pick an argument with the attendent, we were not sure what he was arguing about and never really got a straight answer. Here we were sitting on the side of the road watching Sonu argue while a bus was loading and we feared Cecile would miss her only ride out of town. Some strange men came up to the car and creeped us out. We wanted away from the yucky guys, and in the confusion we tried to load Cecile on the bus thinking she would miss it, feeling the need to do something for ourselves. Just then Sonu noticed, ended his argument and came to get Cecile. That was not her bus.
We hopped back in the car and Sonu drove like a maniac some more to get us to the other end of town in time to catch Cecile's real bus. Incidentally we did end up making it in time for her bus. Thank goodness! We parted ways with Cecile in a hurry which both added to, and took away from of the drama of it all. This was the end of the road for the 3 of us and our goddess adventure. Now there were only 2 left.
The ride back to Rishikesh was hard. We were so tired. Usually Sonu was so sensitive and genlemanly. We would fall asleelp as we pleased and wake up and the man would have gotten us to our destination flawlessly, quickly, efficiently, queitly so as not to wake us. Not on this night! He drove still like a maniac. He had tired sad lines on his face. As I dozed he would jerk the car to wake me, vengefully messing with me. He was going so fast on such dark roads. In my delirium I feared he wanted to kill us all including pain in his heart that I had apparently caused. Sarah and I both were getting really angry with him. The car was so stuffy with bad energy flying between the 3 of us!
Finally we pulled up to the bridge to cross to get to the town of Rishikesh. Usually there was no passage across this road past 9pm. It was near midnight, and the guards stopped us. The interaction we had with these guards was one that I will never forget. Looking back I think I was more bold and brave than I had right to be, but I was so fired up by Sonu's childishness that I was not in the mood to put up with crap. I was tired, I wanted out of the car and into bed ASAP!!! Apparently the guards wanted us to bribe them. They wouldn't come right out and say it, but we all knew it. They were waiting for us to just hand them some money queitly. I turned to the men, and said, "Why are we being detained here? I am so tired. We have had a horrible night. I really need to go sleep in our hotel. Can you please let us pass?!! What are we waiting for?" In my heart, for some reason, I wanted them to ask for the bribe. If they were going to be corrupt then they were going to have to say out loud for us and god to hear the exact bad things they were doing so we could all judge them! I was really mad at Sonu, and they just pissed me off at the wrong moment. The man and I stared each other down. It was as if he knew that god would hear him if he said it out loud and then he would eventually have to pay for it in Karma. He wanted us to just hand over the money in fear instead of him having to verbally intimidate us into it. During our face off, Sarah was so scared in the back seat. She was saying all these things about us leaving and going to a hotel and coming back to Rishikesh in the morning. Some fire in me told me to hold my ground. So I did! And within minutes they let us pass across the bridge, safely, and for free. The man gave me a last glance acknowledging that I had won our arm wrestling contest, my strong spirit had over powered his bad intentions. He looked at me the way a defeated dog looks at the more powerful one. In my delirium I extracted no satisfaction from this encounter, I just went right back to directing my grumpy feelings at Sonu.
We stumbled into our hotel and Sarah and I stayed up another hour gossiping about how mad at Sonu we were, and about how brave I was with the guards. So much had happened in just a few hours. Sleep came fast and heavy the night before we left Rishikesh!